gypsyqueen

it seems the only constant thing in life is change. change of the seasons. Growing old and growing up to be a responsible human being yet there are many stumbling blocks along this path. A discovery of who's true to you and who deceives you. a hardship of trust and determination of where you want to be that its the right path you re walking on. this has been really interesting for me. love changed apart of my soul which i never knew. i felt loss like i thought id never have to experience. had to adjust to sleeping alone during the cold winter nights and it has been bitter sweet. see the thing about being single is putting up this wall that you re moving on and everything is so dandy and nothing could be better than doing as you please but it truly isn't so, there are those heart breaking moments of loneliness and pain that no substance or person could fill the void. its in these defining moments i embrace that what i had was real and its in these moments i feel raw that i know there is change. because its out of our comfort zone. Do i miss my relationship? yes i do very much but one can not continue living in the past of what was and its in this moment we all have to keep looking forward for our sanity at least and take the heartache of losing a love so true as a lesson that something so beautiful can crumble any moment and life is so precious that it can be taken away. my moms best friend is dying of cancer so sudden and real but its just a reminder of how beautiful this day is. So I'm truly grateful for all i have and all that there is to come ahead:)